Prayer & Meditation

1. What is Prayer?
I'm going to use the description found in the book, "God Calling", in which Jesus is talking to two English ladies on the matter. It is the May 31st entry. Jesus states, "Prayer is of many kinds, but of whatever kind, prayer is the linking up of the soul and mind and heart to God.

So that if it is only a glance of faith, a look or word of love, or confidence, and no supplication is expressed, it yet follows that all supply and all necessary are secured; because the soul, being linked to God, united to Him, receives in and through Him all things. And the soul, when in human form needs too the things belonging to its habitation."

That description strikes home to me. To me, prayer begins when at any moment in our lives we recognize we can't solve the situation or relationship at that moment, and in that desperation we just wish there was an answer. I didn't "officially" pray to God until I was fifty-three, yet by forty, God had given me a number of out-of-body experiences hinting of His Presence, but hiding the knowing of it in all its fullness.

I wasn't ready for that, still continuing to do things on my own, thinking that I had to be the one to find answers. Yet, from that moment of desperation God showed me there was a spirit dimension, and He enabled to arise in my mind the fact that this world was troubled, that people lived off of each other instead of with each other, and there was another way; to live with kindness and sharing with each other. A partial answer for my partial readiness.

Thirteen years needed to pass before He could prepare me to know of His existence and relationship with me. Then I'd pray for people, problems in the world, for further understanding to come to me, help with my insecurities, etc...

My present understanding has shifted my prayer life. I've been praying to be the best servant I could be made into by Him. But then the understanding was given to me (the May 30th entry in "God Calling") that all is already complete. I knew that from other sources, but never included that in my prayer life.

Now I pray, "Jesus, Mary, and all your companions, thank you for all you have done that has completed the salvation of all our Father's children and I thank you, thank you, thank you for what You've done to save us all." They are teaching me that every moment has already been solved. We've all been healed. Completion has been established for us in our cosmic, kingdom home and it just takes us time in our world of time and space to recognize it. ...Thank God, thank God, thank God.

2. Why is Prayer important?
If you're anything like me, when you are thinking and living in the moment from your own mind, without the awareness of God, we're feeling a chronic uneasiness. Be it blatant or subtle, we feel vulnerable to the influence of others and world phenomena, an unworthiness which results in a loneliness, a low self-esteem, or an attempt to be haughty and above others, worries about the future, - you add on all the rotten feelings of chronic discomfort yourself. One person said that the feeling to him was "isolation." You feel so "crummy" that out of shame you wouldn't even want to broach the feelings to others, thinking they're all better than our self.

I've never found a solution to this except through prayer. I'll turn to God in one prayer or another such as "Love, catch this thought that's bothering me. Help me to hand it to You and to see it and react to it as You would." Or, "Love, I don't want my mind, I want Your mind." Or, "Take me over Love; I want You as me, not me as me." Do you catch the drift? The moment I start that, the thoughts or feelings begin to die down, because when I pray, I've shifted out, or refocused from my human mind, and have begun the process by which permission has been granted to God to let His mind and solutions rise up in my consciousness by which to handle the moment. I've never found another way to get valid solutions. Since it's my only answer for obtaining the peace of God as one with me, IT'S IMPORTANT. All else I found to be temporary answers, with no structure to stand on whatsoever.

3. Is there a "right-way" or "wrong-way" to pray?
I've got trouble with using the words "right" and "wrong" because I see myself simply as knowing something or not knowing something. Jesus on the Cross gives us His framework- "Forgive them Father because they don't know what they're doing." Either we're at some level of enlightenment or we're not.

Another wonderful statement by Jesus makes us aware of the fact we're ignorant when we are leading from our human mind. He says of Himself, "Of Myself, I know nothing. I look to the Father Who shows me what to do, and I do what the Father shows me." Likewise, we pray from whatever understanding we've got at that moment, we can't do anything else, and its better that we pray rather than not pray.

Since, like Jesus, we don't know anything either, that means we don't even know how to correct anything. That's why Jesus says we have to depend on Him to lead us- "Oh ye who are tired and overburdened, let Me bring ye rest." So I don't have the tendency to worry about how I'm doing with my prayer at any moment. He'll lead me to great depths and efficiency of prayer step by step. And what I'm praying at that moment is the best I can, can't do more that that, and feel assured that He knows what He is doing as He brings me along on the healing path. And I believe that to be true for others, no matter what difficulties or error plagued lost lives we're leading at that moment.

4. Walk us through a prayer from beginning to end.
Jesus taught us the Our Father prayer but the only things I can think of about the prayer process are Deuteronomy- "Be still and know that I am God" and "Jesus saying that we should "yoke" ourselves to Him. Both of them say the same thing. Let ourselves be led. Thus our part in the prayer process is the preliminary to praying. We come to the point where we want help beyond ourselves and what we are capable of. We have no peace and want peace. We hope for a solution that we can't put our finder on. That in itself is our job. To wish for help. What happens after that is God's business. He fills our awareness with the content of the prayer. He decides on the length of it. He decides how much of a step of healing we will receive based on His perfect judgment.

In plain words, whether we know it or not, He puts the words in our mouths at that moment, and enables us to comprehend the answer as well. God grows us in the depth of what we will say and hear, as we move along. And He is in charge as well of how fast we will move in correcting lostness and its errors.

5. What should we pray for?
Whatever it dawns on you to pray for at any given moment. If you sense to pray, the reason that has happened is that you're receiving God's signal to be in touch. That's what makes us pray. We'd never pray if God didn't do that. Because the human mind is not a praying mind. It's the fallen state, the lost condition. So, if you become aware to pray for something or someone, you are receiving signals from the holy part of your mind that is in touch with God to do so. Even if you're praying for something that later on you become aware needs a different manner of praying, you were right to pray anyway because you were praying within the capability to do so that you possessed at that moment. You can't do more than that. Be at peace knowing that it's all a perfect process and God is very good in His piloting skills.

6. Is there anything we shouldn't be praying? Considered inappropriate?
We only find that out later on. At the moment we're prayed the best we know how. To the extent that we want God to settle a concern the way we hope it should turn out makes it difficult for us to hear the answer to the issue that He is sending us. We're looking for what we in our limited understanding hopes is the answer, but it's better that we prayed than not because we are opening up ourselves to God's further guidance even though there are limitations to what we'll receive. But that's all part of the perfect healing process. We can't be rushed or we'll become unstable if we are. It's a gentle measured process as administered by God.

7. In order for me to have a relationship with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, must I first ask the Holy Spirit into my heart?
Generally speaking, the relationship with God, be it the Trinity or any other identity to which you pray, only begins in your conscious awareness when you have requested His presence. God needs your permission to appear to you or to be of assistance to you. The human world and the human mind are oppositional to the Divine and since God gives you free will, He respects your right to think or not think of Him. If He was to enter into your awareness without that, He would be imposing on what and how you want to experience at that moment. God thus extends to you freedom no matter what the circumstance, out of respect to such a right. This is paramount.

8. After I pray my prayer, do I stop or wait on God?
If you think to do it, you will. If not, you won't. It depends on the level of maturity of your prayer path. Silent waiting for God is deeply appreciated in God's communication with you. And it is always rewarded with some experience of His presence, ranging from a sense of quiet, or peace or serenity or maybe a feeling of an empty space within you (which is really His peace), or a message or understanding to some troubled thought or feeling, or awareness through your senses. The way God responds is highly individual, and countless in its ways.

9. How long should I wait?
Wait as long as you are comfortable waiting. Your human head is certainly going to try to interrupt your waiting, with all kinds of distracting thoughts. But you'll catch them, let them go by and wait again. At some point you'll sense that your prayer period is complete, that it feels right to move on. Or it can be a feeling of discomfort to remain in quiet. Under any circumstance you can be assured that some answer has been given that was relevant to the moment, and you might choose to thank God. Or if you are uneasy, hand Him the uneasiness, - "Lord, I feel uneasy and ask Your way to look upon it and handle it." The response should settle your distracting mind as to whether all is complete at that point.

10. How can I ready myself to hear Him or encounter Him?
The only readiness you need is to wish to be in touch with God, nothing more. Remember that Jesus said He knew nothing and that is the same for our human state of mind. Therefore, you do not know how to get ready for Him after you have the desire to pray. God will lead you into the appropriate state of readiness. That's His job, not ours. If you think that is being a "do-nothing", remember that you are doing something by being willing to let Him do for you because His system of preparation is much more knowledgeable than ours.

11. Is prayer enough?
Remember Jesus saying to seek first the Kingdom of God and all else will follow? Prayer is the seeking of the Kingdom. It guides you into the experience of God within, and that dictates what more is needed of you. You will feel the desire or yearning to perform what is asked. Indeed, nothing feels more precious to you at that moment than such an implanted direction from God.

12. What else does God want from me? How can I please Him?
God has already built His wants into you. God wants you to experience all that He experiences, for that is the ultimate joy behind His creating you. It's even O.K. to God that you want to experiment and see if you can make yourself happier than God can make you. God knows you'll find out that it is not possible. And no matter what scheme you enter into from your human mind, it doesn't change how God created you in the first place, because He did not create you with the ability to change what He created to be your ultimate happiness. The only thing that God needed from you is to wish for His presence to activate Him. You are in charge of that timing, but God is in charge of the fact that eventually that will happen and thus activate Him.

You are pleasing God by the joy gotten from creating you and sharing His existence and joy with you. Automatically, simply by your creation as God's child, does God have pleasure. In His spirit dimension, our true home, there is nothing but pleasure. So it is only when our minds conjure up anther dimension, another existence, another identity other that the eternal God-spirits that we are, and become unaware of the true dimension that we would think that God is not pleased. But all this is imagination. The moment the unreality is recognized, similar to the thief on the Cross who experienced that, Jesus informs him that he will be in Paradise with Him that very day. God knows how to heal us. God knows nothing can contradict His true Creation no matter what in out free will we choose to imagine, and thus He is always pleased with what He has created, and their potential to reawaken to His truth from the nightmare. God built that into us.

13. How do I know if I'm walking in complete trust in Him?  How do I get there?
Certainly your human mind is not going to tell you that. It distrusts God, and wants to maintain its own scenario with you. So, if you doubt your trusting ability, offer that issue to God. "Lord, help me see the issue of my trust of You as You see it." Then listen to or feel His answer. Do you feel peaceful? Content? A calmness? Feel Him condemning you? Furious? Would you want to experience that He's not worrying about your thoughts of Him? After all He created you and knows your true spirit qualities. And how He has implanted you with the ability to trust and to turn to Him, eventually, and find His love of you, His creation. Just ask about what you are uncertain of. That's how you get there.

14. How do I go deeper, meditate, longer periods with God?
You can't by yourself. Your head doesn't like that. But if you have the desire for God to step in on your life, you've done what you're able to do. And now it is God who controls the increasing contact with Him, knowing how to tempt, to compel the desire to do so. At every moment you are in the fullest attentiveness to God that you are capable of. You are never failing. Only moving forward through His perfect relationship with you brings you home to Paradise.

15. Can I interfere or mess up an encounter with Him?
Impossible. Since God knows your entire life in this world and is in charge of the process to bring you home, He knows what you are capable of in your prayer life and encounters, and what you are not capable of. He never exceeds you nor does He ever deliver to you less than you can handle. If you thought that you are in charge of the healing process, and not God, then you would be open to judgment errors about how you are doing. But you're not. He's your Savior. You're incapable of that role with yourself and others as well. And your own judgmental mind is not the mind of God. They are two different minds which are dissimilar in all ways.

16. How do I know when it's God's will and not my own?
You can guess, surmise, theorize, rationalize and speculate about what is His will or your will, but you'll never come up with the right answer. Our mind's a "nothing", error prone, just like Jesus said of His own human mind. So when you're unsure, ask God and wait for the answer. If you're still in conflict, pray it again. Wait for a feeling of peace within you. That feeling state provides you the understanding to the question, for you now are experiencing God's mind as you in the peaceful state.

17. What does God want from us?
Just the recognition that we are lost. That opens us up for His help and initiates the trip back home to our spirit life in Paradise with Him and each other for posterity of peace and joy and freedom.

18. How do I know He exists?
If you wish to know that God exists, you will be shown that God exists. God certainly wants you to know that He exists and of His unconditional loving qualities. But, if there is a fear of His existing or uneasiness about His attitude towards you then you would have to put that concern to God for His attention because you would be in conflict about His existing. God does not oppose what you are choosing to believe or not to believe. But if you ask Him - "God, I'm uneasy about knowing if you exist. Help me with that uneasiness." You will receive assurance of His love as well as His existence.

19. Should I read, study, meditate on the Holy Bible?
Lots of people do as part of their path for recovering awareness of His presence, His relationship to you and of His ministry. I read Scripture as my earliest introduction to the existence of God and Christ. It gave me a good start. Many aspects were consistent with my own experience of His absolute loving qualities and were validating.

20. What does the Holy Bible do for us?
I can't answer for us, but I can for me. I watch the struggle of the human mind over the generations trying to come to grips with the Presence of God and of His nature and relationship to His children. One sees people attributing to God qualities of their own human state, and they come up short in experiencing Him. But as the Scripture goes along, increasingly a more valid picture emerges. Too there are excellent healing aspects to it incorporated in the personage's grasp of the healing process. It played its role in introducing me to the structure by which to know God, my own true nature and what was behind my lostness. To this day, I marvel at some of the advanced insights that people had thousands of years ago (e.g. Paul). And God uses my reading Scripture with increasing rewards of closeness and intimacy in the Reality that is Him.

21. Should I believe everything in it or is it parables?
I would not want to tell you what to believe or not believe from my own flawed human mind and its reasoning. There's nothing wrong with asking God what to believe or aspects that raise questions. Christ says that He is one Who wants to lead you, and you'll gain the understanding that He has. I'll take that.

22. How can I further understand God and His desires for me?
Your question seems to imply that you have a yearning to do so. Therefore, you've done everything required of you, and God as part of His perfect process for healing you will unfold that to you at His pace, sequence, timing, etc. Anything further that is required of you to coordinate with that process He develops and places it inside you. You'll suddenly get some flash of an idea, or some desire, but it didn't originally come from your mind. You are experiencing His implantation of the flash within you as a receptor of God rather than an originator of the understanding process.

23. What is the difference between God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit?
Christians, as I have been told, killed each other over their differences of opinion about this subject. The Nicene Creed was to have settled their understanding. For myself, the Father was the Creator; the Son was the teacher preparing us for the healing, recovery and salvation process by the action arm of God, which is the Holy Spirit.

24. Why are the Trinity needed and not just the Father?
Moses ran into the problem of people being frightened of God and wanting him to be the go-between, and would he please veil his face from the light that shone from it. So Jesus provided an opportunity for people to intimately know God's presence and nature in order to lose their fear of Him. Once accomplished, I would guess that the easiest and most comfortable way to experience His action within us is the spirit mind and its administration by the Holy Spirit. That's my present opinion.

25. When I pray to God, do all Three of the Trinity hear me?
Whether all three hear or not, your prayer is being heard by the Oneness that God essentially is, even though necessarily divided up into three Aspects as required by the human mind to grasp the fullness of God. If though you're concerned about whether or not you are addressing God correctly, I would suggest that you put that issue to God and let God reassure you as only God can.

26. Should I direct my prayer to One of Them or All of Them or to One of Them specifically during a certain kind of prayer?
I notice that I will shift from time to time about Who I am praying to, though not necessarily over the Trinitarian concept. Most of the time I'm talking to Jesus, but when I need some warm mothering presence, I feel drawn to talk to Mary. And then other times I address the Object of my prayers as "Loves." Or a singular "Beloved" and let it go to where it is meant to be received. I just go with my sense of comfort.

27. What is Meditation?
When you and I decide we wish to offer ourselves to God, and we enter into a simple state of silent waiting for whatever God wishes to do with our offering, this is Meditation.
We have no agenda, nor desired personal outcome; - it's strictly up to God and His interventions for us and through us as vehicles to accomplish His goals through ourselves as passive, receptive, obedient, obliging servants. If we were to offer up a prayer before we entered the silence, I might think some variation on the following could be relevant: "Here You are Love, help Yourself to us for whatever it is You intend to accomplish. Help us to be receptive."

Whatever happens after that? Strictly God's business. We have nothing to do with it. We are incapable of judging how well we did, what was accomplished, etc... Whatever the meditative experience turns out to be was anticipated and known to God. What was meant to happen happened. God accomplished exactly what was meant to be accomplished, no more no less than that what God could do to us through us. We were utilized to the fullest, be it for one second or lengthy periods of time, few or many distractions, little or much sensed in our personal human opinions. It is always a successful offering at some level with successful outcome(s) according to God's standards.

28. How is Meditation different from Prayer?
Meditation is a form of prayer. Maybe other prayer formats could differ from the meditative silence by their intentions; - we put before God issues that are on our mind, seeking solutions, understanding, or a fulfillment of some hope or desire, be it for ourselves or for others. They're statements of our wish to bring something to the attention of God for what we hope will be a favorable action on God's part, according to our standards.

Yet, if after we way to God what is on our mind, it still becomes meditation if we than fall silent and await God's presence and/or response, if we can accept the idea of letting God react according to His will for what is best, in place of our own.

29. I'm a fidget, how do I relax so I can meditate?
When we fidget, it is simply the indication that our human mind is not yet emptied out of its distracting thoughts. I'm a fidget too. Sometimes I'm distracted for short periods and sometimes longer ones.

What best relaxes you for the meditative periods proceeding is a number of understandings:  It's not your job to control your mind's distracting thoughts. First of all - you can't control it. You'd be using your same mind that's causing the fidgets to counter itself and stop the fidgets. The human mind has no intention whatsoever of doing that. It wants to retain its position as "top dog". It has not intention of letting another mind "top" it in prominence.

God will step in to do the job. God simply makes you aware that you're fidgeting. You catch the distraction - be they thoughts or feelings. And this enables you to return once again, if you so wish to ignore them and resume silent waiting.

Catching the "fidget" is one of a number of successful outcomes of the meditation. For God is showing you that you can only be distracted temporarily before you sense the Divine nudge and choose to return to your original wish to offer yourself as God's divine servant.

30. Walk me through a meditation as if you were sitting besides me. Cover what I would do and what to expect while going into silence. Also comment on what I will see or might see, feel and even hear.
I would usually ask people if they wanted to go into the silence while holding hands or without touching, and trust to their opinion.

If it is with a person(s) less experienced at meditation, I would tend to be more directive. For example - "Beloved, quiet us now. Enable us to be open to you." Then I might go further in the process, "Drain us out, Love. Collapse us. Help us to give up our thoughts, our feelings, and our body." Then possibly, "Help us to look inside where you are." Or, "Help us to wait now, just wait Lord. You know what You're doing." Or if seeming to be required, "When we get distracted, just help us to come back to You." But there's no specific formula. I hope for God to lead me in what to say, or not to say, or when to do it. I also watch for the person to relax, a sudden going limp. For I believe they've stepped over into the divine mind form the human mind.

At the end, the person may come out form it by themselves or I have an inner sensing that the process has drawn down, which I judge from my own experience. This latter point I will use in a group setting. In group work, I will inform them before we enter into prayer, that they need not worry about coming out of it, or if they were too long in emerging and inconveniencing others. I tell them I will call them out of it so as to encourage them to simply attend to their inner journey.

When we emerge, I encourage the person(s) to describe what they experienced, discuss it if they wish and handle too any uncertainties about whether they were doing it improperly, or, a very common misbelieve - that "nothing happened". "Nothing happened" is frequently the description of an actual feeling of quietness, or peacefulness, another aspect of accomplishment within the meditative experience.

When I ask a person if that feeling of "nothing" is their usual state of mind. They generally are quick to respond, "No", that their heads are "Noisy." This enables them to see they were in another portion of their mind unrelated to the human state.

Some people upon entering a prayer period may have issues and concerns on their mind and thy might wish to speak to God about them. So I might also say at the beginning, that we can choose to enter the meditation by simply being quiet because God knows what He wishes to accomplish, or to speak to God about what is on their mind. Both approaches are fine.

But if they use "active" prayer or talking to God, I would remind them that when they're done informing God of their thoughts, to then fall silent and await God's reply.
Under any circumstance, I caution them not to anticipate what God might respond to, not to limit their attentiveness to their hopes or expectations, because God in turn knows what He wants to bring to them. If they are pre-focusing on their own expectancy, it weakens their receptivity to what might be coming, if what comes is different from their anticipation.

A final point, - I caution that God comes to each of us in a highly individual manner. No one experience is better or less than another. God knows what He wants to bring to us and knows how to enable us to receive it as part of His pre-determined and led healing of us; that it can be a quiet, or seeing something or bearing a word or message or feeling a physical presence. The experiences are countless. But they are all relevant to the person at that moment. I assure them that God always delivers fully what the person is ready for, never more and never less.

31. My head is interrupting.... What do I do?
Rejoice at spotting your head is interrupting! It means that you've been enabled to catch the Spirit's warning signal to you that you're distracted. You are thus succeeding in the meditative practice of being opened to God's presence and God's leading of you.

32. How do I tune out outside stimulation and noise?
The answer to this is the same as for your "head interrupting". Actually your head is choosing to listen to noise and external stimulation. If the Spirit is not ready to address that issue with you (because it is addressing some other issue that has present priority) you'll be successfully distracted by your head. But if you catch it, God has arrived on the scene, signals your distraction and gives you the choice to listen further to noise, or to God's help to re-focus on the meditative process.

33. What is the perfect environment for someone beginning to meditate? Should the room be dark, candles lit or something else?
For myself, I want a quiet place where I won't be disturbed and a sufficient period of time that I won't be pressured. Each of us has to experiment with what helps us to best focus inwardly and await our beloved Healer and Guide. Candles? Mantras? Dance? Song? Whatever helps us into the silent servanthood waiting.

You'll feel comfortable with your bodily position if it's helpful or God is going to enable you to shift position if that is required. You'll simply feel drawn in to a bodily position, or an inner listening, or a peering within from your mind. It feels more fulfilling.

Or there can be an inner image of some position that fulfills an inner yearning to be more present to the Beloved. Just keep in mind that you're being in unerringly led, unerringly drawn to the feeling of union with God. You're made passive by Him to receive Him, and then activated to accomplish that very reception.

It's a very gentle process. Big moves would disconcert us. We'd be unprepared and destabilized. That would frighten us. God is impeccably aware of your tolerance for change and for you to deepen your faith and your knowledge of His total propensity for healing you and returning you to your eternal home with Him and all His beloved creations.

34. Why does God meet me in a place of meditation but I don't maintain that level of consciousness during my day?
You're expecting to be in charge of a process of which you actually have no control of staying in touch with God. Your human mind is incapable of initiating contact with God, or even to wish to initiate contact. In fact, as I said before, the human wants you to focus on its identity, believe in it, sustain it and hallow it. So it's not going to remain quiet when God invites your traipsing off to the reception of His presence. No way! It will yowl, growl, send fantasies, temptations, perversion, - anything to reinvest in its desirability.

And you will fall victim to it. For it knows how to push the buttons that still can appeal to you. So you'll need to be shown by God that healing involves a countering process. God counters the human mind's distractions with the signal that you're distracted. God is saying... choose again. Your mind or my mind as your mind.

You are enabled to remember the loving and fulfilling past experiences of His mind whenever you did make that choice, and that part of your mind receptive to God does choose (immediately or eventually) to return to waiting servanthood. But, you see, its cycle after cycle of distraction by human mind, then signal of distraction, then choice by receptive mind to return to God, and then newest human mind distraction once again.

Each cycle's completion is a step ahead in healing! It's not a failure. You're watching God deal with the human mind. Steadily, bit by bit, increment by increment, you're abandoning investment in your human interests and receiving God's interests as its replacement within you.

35. How long should I meditate and how often?
One more aspect of which we're not in charge. Our heads have no wish to meditate! None whatsoever! The only reason we meditate is that God "puts the touch on us" and we feel a compelling desire, a draw to meditate at the expense of everything else. We meditate as often as God compels it for His will to be done to us and through us. Likewise God knows the amount of time each meditation period will utilize to absorb the contents that are being delivered.

You'll feel complete for that moment. Nothing more can be accomplished. If you try for more, there can be a discomfort at doing so, indicating that you're not in tune with God's process of orchestration.

36. Should I fast?
Only if it helps to focus. Not to deprive or punish or do penance. If unclear to the answer, simply ask God for advice.

37. Should I stay away from certain foods or drink?
Again, that comes from personal experience. But if it's an issue to you, I suggest putting it to God and await His answer, which He will deliver in such a manner as to resolve the matter for you.

38. Should I have an agenda to meditate with God or just go to a quiet place and wait?
There's nothing wrong with having an agenda. It might be in the very place where you're meant to be by God as part of the discerning process path we're all on. I would encourage you though, that once you've handed your agenda statement to God that you would need to drop it off but not insist on a return answer according to your sense of need and timing. Why? Because God has a natural sequence of timing and content that is delivered to you. And the agenda you placed with God might not be at the junction point in which He's "working" you. It might be two-steps down the road and He can't jump ahead of what you're ready for now. So he won't deliver it because as I said before, that would destabilize you and unnerve you, even frighten you. You would feel some incomprehensible force overwhelming you against the intention of where you'd want to be at that moment in comfort.

You need to feel that you're respected in the process of change too, in terms of willingness to move within your felt capabilities. Anything else would terrify us. God knows this. God gently compels your acquiescence to abandon what is worthless and to recover awareness of your true worth as His child, and the worth of the Kingdom that is experienced when you release some element of this world.

I trust God's judgment and wait. But, there are times when I'm pressing into new areas of healing that I have an agenda of uncertainty that arises. But I usually add that I apologize for it and in no way wish for God to deviate from the plan that best serves the both of us. Sound familiar? Jesus in the garden of Gesemane, - "let your will be done, not mine." But then he told His Father His agenda - "Do I have to drink from this cup?" He finally dropped the agenda. But it took three times to pray it before He could be helped to release the agenda. Luke mentioned He needed an angel to deliver the strength to go forward.