God

1.  Who is God?

 I can only answer this on the basis of how He revealed Himself to me.  At about 40 years of age, I was taken into the spirit dimension through the “tunnel” experience described by others who have out-of-the-world experiences.  I then saw light up a symbol of the Star of David and extending from its bottom point, and fused to it was the Christian Cross.  It would be thirteen years later that a further enlightenment would be revealed to me- I then gazed upon the face of Jesus in His human form.

 At another time, while sitting in my car in the parking lot of a homeless shelter, I heard the words in my head “I am the ­­Moor"  It seems to me that God will show a different identity to His children that is relevant to their best possible understanding and service to Him.

 For those who will read the messages of God to me in “the Footladder of Notes Divine” it is the Trinity identity through which He speaks to me but the commissionings clearly state that the world, not just a select few of God’s children, will be returned to the Kingdom.

 2.  What is God?

 Again, an answer from my personal experience.  As part of the experience in which I gazed upon Jesus’ face, I underwent a distinct physical experience.  In the vision, prior to seeing His face, I gazed upon a wooden chair, rocking from the force of a wind.  In the portion of the chair where the back meets the seat, there was a circle, like one of the earlier round screens of a TV set, in which I saw clouds rushing forward, being pushed by a wind.  Discomforted, yet attracted to the scene (like Moses with the burning bush) I tried to stop the chair from rocking.  I grasped its arms and was filled with a force of electricity that froze me into an immovable state (for weeks after I would still feel the electric currents’ effects at the crown of my head).  Thus did I experience God as an energy source of force.

 At other times in the vision state I would experience Him as a brilliant white light, again to which I was attracted but in these experiences with a complete comfort and inner peace in their presence.  I save what His qualities are for a later question that you ask.

 3.  Where did He come from?

 I have experienced God’s presence as both external to me and internally.  Of where He resides otherwise I have no knowledge. 

 4.  Was He created by something?  How did He come into existence?

 Of these questions I have no knowledge

 5.  Where does He live?

 Other than my experience and that of others with whom such matters are shared, God is experienced as within each of us.  Others too, though, experience Him external to their bodies as well.

 6.  What does He look like?

 I have described God’s physical appearances as light and energy.  He has shown Himself to me also as a cloud (Israel was led by a pillar of cloud by day), as a wind, as a Voice, and as thoughts present in my mind, and as the Jesus portion of the Trinity.

  7.  What is His mission?

 In the “Footladder” dictations to me, God described His intentions for His followers-

            1.  To help them regain awareness of eternal life as the Son of God through which He can administer salvation of the world.

            2.  Reconcile His children with each other

            3.  To regain status of kingdom home in earthly enterprises; to propel the world into the kingdom home.

 8.  Does He ever come to earth?

 He sure comes to me in a multitude of experiences.  I consider that a coming into the “earthly” mind sphere.  But when you consider those who experience the mystical phenomena, God uses trance states, out-of-the-body experiences to deliver transmissions of a modified and directed nature.  Imagine trying to walk this world immobilized by an electric current.  If a fuller sensing of presence was delivered.

 Even in such diluted form, -Jesus as part of the Trinity, Moses, the prophets, -they touch off great defensive reactions by the human mind state against the sensing of spirit reality.

 9.  Why does it seem like He is so distant from us?

 It’s a good point that you use the word “seem”.  For it is just that.  It “seems” that way.  I can think of a couple of reasons:

            1.  God gives His creations free will.  We are entitled to experience God’s unity with us in the true reality of the Divine state as we wish, including not at all.  When we choose to lessen the feeling of true connectedness with God, God respects that and does not violate it.

            2.  We’ve chosen a distant state.  The Garden of Eden story theme exemplifies that.  God created us to be in a mind relationship with Him and we chose to have a different one.  Or as Jesus said in the gospels, reminding us of the two different states that “flesh gives birth to flesh and spirit gives birth to spirit.”  If we choose to experience the human state mind, we do not receive the awareness of the spirit mind.  The only way to receive such awareness of the spirit is to wish for that eternal state, and to abandon investment in the human mind and the fear-based life it creates.

 It’s just a choice of which mind we want, which dictates experiencing, the profound oneness of God, our Creator and His children.

 Want to experience the precious peace and fulfillment of the spirit state?  I would pray- “Help me God, to offer myself to you and what state of mind and life you wish me to experience, and thereby choose the level of relations to you that best serves me in our relationship and my service to you.”  Then leave it to God to fulfill your wholesome desire in His gentle timing, and sequence of delivery to you.

 By the way, in the “Footladder of Notes Divine” God calls us to return to Him many, many times, pointing out to us, the “pickle” we’re in with our self loathing and the destructive aspects of the world we choose to create and inhabit.

 10.  Why do we not live with Him now?

 Ask yourself a question.  Do you find no value, no preciousness, no desire, and no interests in this human world right now?  For that is what we are reduced to by the time we are ready to be awakened by God as the preparation for leaving this world and returning to the kingdom.  Because we have welcomed God’s mind as ours, we give Him the opportunity to supplant our own human mind with our original divine mind of oneness with our Creator.  Steadily, increasingly, we see the worthlessness of the human framework when we witness God’s viewpoint in our relationship and circumstances, until finally, there’s nothing left that we continue to treasure in the human existence.  But until that moment, we continue to “stick around”.

 There’s a second reason as well.  If under these circumstances we still continue to dwell here, it could very well be because there are others we are still meant to exchange and nourish healing in, both through personal and prayer contact, before out mission of service to God’s solution plan for the world is completed, that must precede out reawakening to the Kingdom home.

 11.  Why hasn’t He come for us?

 God has come for us.  Jesus and His mother came into this world for that very reason and provided awareness of the healing put in place in the cosmic plan.  In that instant, all healing took place in a cosmic moment.

 The reason that it seems to take so long is that it has to get through the “filters” of human consciousness which denies that reality.  We have to be willing to abandon the human consciousness we chose, in safety and trust of the new awareness.  This is a slower process in this world of time that has to be respected for us to “choose” again the right consciousness.  We have to see the love of God for us even in this lost stately and His respect for our free will and its choice making decisions.  Otherwise he could appear as a bully, ­­­thus frightening us, and delay ever returning to such a perception of God.  We’d just stay in this world that we’re “not of”.

 12.  Why are we separated from Him?

 We’re not.  It only seems that way when we’re indulging the thoughts and experiences of the human format.  God’s not in that mind and that mind was created on the foundation that we could separate from Him and be our own little gods in place of Him.

 But when we get tired of that state, automatically, by a desire to stop this game, we give Him permission to set the “record” straight, begin appearing in our consciousness to direct us though healing and completion of the ultimate salvation path to the kingdom.

 In fact, you see in the “Footladder of Notes Divine” the daily reinforcement of the process by which He gets us to disengage from this false world that in scripture Jesus says of it “you’re in this world but not of it.”  Good description for this world we cooked up, reminding us that we’re kingdom people as our true home.  We’ll all get there.  God doesn’t lose any of his children who, again as Jesus said of us- “don’t know what they’re doing.”

 13.  Is He our Father?

 Oh you bet He is.  This is a very important point.  It’s behind Jesus walking three of His disciples transfiguring in front of them and showing them through the appearance of Moses and Elijah that were there in their eternal dimension that is quite real.  Jesus even says we have but one Father and He is in heaven.

 In the human mind state, we equate the body with our “self”.  It’s a very clever move by which to blank out the memory of the “soul”, our true spirit identity, and replace our kingdom relationship of love between us with a new belief that we’re separate from each other.  And we sure relate to each other in their world on that basis, feeling chronic tension, uneasiness, loneliness and distrust with each other.

 So our Father began the “showing up” process through Jesus’ appearance in the world on a very concrete basis, and demonstrating the qualities of the Father’s love to reassure us of our safety in Him and the kingdom home.  What were but hints before through the prophets of history, requiring faith, now was a further step toward concrete knowledge of the Father and our ultimate reality.

 14.  If He loves us, why does He leave us here?

 He has two options.  Enable us to let go of this world that He never created at our own pace of healing that He administers, or get exasperated and clunk us over the head with a cosmic baseball bat to hasten the process.

 He created us with free will and the right to make our errors, knowing we can never change His original creation of our eternal being, nor change its loving nature.  So we’re safe in our true world even though experiencing this fearful world of human life and death.

 You can bet if He “clunked” us with that baseball bat, we’d be very fearful of His nature, and I suspect we’d always be leery about His attitude and quality of love in the kingdom, thus delaying further our potential wish to joyfully return.

 15.  Why’s there hatred and evil in this world?

 Because it’s human “stuff” that is always pressing to the surface of our consciousness.  Let me make a suggestion- instead of looking at the hatred and evil in this world; let’s look inside of ourselves as the possible answer for this concern.  I’ll take myself as an example.  When I’m aware to ask God in my prayer, “Love, become me” or “take over”, a quiet comes upon me.  Or I’m in a disagreement with someone and I pray “Lord, let me see them from you and treat them as you would”.  I remain at peace, and in that peace, I’m able to let another person go be themselves, and have whatever opinion they wish of me.  I’m in my divine mind and I have no negative opinion of myself or others.  But if I’m in my human mind, that is a whole different story.

 Now there’s self doubt about my adequacy and competency.  Now I’ve got to prove myself, my worth.  Now I feel uneasy about myself and I need to have another think well of me in order to stem the feeling of inferiority surfacing.

 When these feelings arise, I’m going to need external support for my hope that I’m worthwhile.  But, the problem there is that whatever I think of myself, I’m also going to believe that you think the same way about me.  It’s going to lurk there, simmering away, just waiting for some small hint, real or imagined, to confirm my suspicion.  I’ll overlook everything positive as a “put-off”.  I’m just plain waiting for the real stuff to come out- the despise of me.  In psychology they call it projection-putting your own thoughts and opinions in the minds of others.

 So, under these circumstances, how will I feel about the other person?  I’m going to fear that person which is the underlying emotion from which hatred emerges; and if I get fearful enough, that you mean me harm (it’s all coming from my deluded mind)  I’ll act on it to defend myself since I believe you mean me harm;- the story of me, you and the world.  

 16.  Why are children and the innocent allowed to suffer and die?

 Let’s play God.  Who’s going to create a soul.  Would God say- I want to give this created one everything that I am, that brings them joy?  That my pleasures are my child’s pleasures.  My fullness is my child’s fullness.  Wouldn’t you say you think God would do that?  Or would God say “look kiddo, I’ll give you some of Me, but sorry, not complete happiness.  I enjoy watching you suffer too, so have some suffering to give me some kicks.”  Now, Kimia, if this latter description is legitimate, I think we’d look around for another God instead of this twisted one.

 We wouldn’t wish it, and surely then, neither would He.  We’ve give our child every possible joy from ourselves and so would He.

 Well, if God therefore didn’t make suffering and death, it’s either got to come from some other “creative force” (some would say the Devil) either outside of our self, or within our self.

 I’ll give you my belief on this one, Kimia.  There’s one thing only that God couldn’t give His children and that is to be the original Creator, like Himself.  That’s God and no one else.  Everything else about God we’ve got.  The single weak spot in which anything could go wrong is in our not being like Him as the Original Creator.

 Well, knowing me and my jealous “wanting” human mind, I’m going to want to be a “big shot” just like my Creator, and be the all-powerful one myself.  If God says, ”look you’ve got everything I got, but not the “apple” of Myself, sorry, can’t do that for you,” you can bet I’m going to create my own “apple” and be my own original “creator” just like God.  And I know that I did that, in conjunction with a lot of others who felt the same way as me.  Can I remember doing it? , or when I did it?  Nope.  I blotted it out.  I’ve got to, if I’m going to be a “big-shot”.  Can’t stand any other “big-shots” crowding me.  I’m also uneasy about crossing God, with this desire to be a one and only “big-shot”.  So from all this uneasiness about such a fantasy, this world comes about with a significant element of fear as part of its creation (fear of God who maybe is really “ticked off” at me for my ungratefulness to Him).  More nonsense, - God knew I’d have to try it, create a lesser creation, throw the sponge in on its fearful unhappiness and want to return to Him after my fantasy adventure.  And like the Father in the prodigal son story, God rushes out with great joy to greet his beloved son returning.

 So in my created world, I’m not “innocent” and everyone else coming into it are not innocent.  That takes care of that issue. 

 What about dying?  Well, if I’m to be an original Creator, absolutely unlike God, and He has the monopoly on eternal life, what’s left to be “original”- a being who is not immortal,- death.

 That’s my understanding of it, as far as I can go with it from readings that I profoundly respect, plus my little “add-ons”.

 17.  Why does God do nothing in those situations?

 God doesn’t touch our creations until we give Him permission to do so.  After all, He wants His children to be creators just as He enjoys that Himself with His Creation of the kingdom.  So He lets us live it out.  But, look at verses #’s 7, 8, and 9 of the Footladder of Notes Divine.  We did nothing that can destroy what He made our souls to be, so our true soul minds just wait to be reactivated, and this world of illusion fades out.

 By the way, when I had my “out of the body” experience, I had absolutely no memory of this world. It was “gone”, undetected and when I returned to that portion of my mind, first I was confused about where I was, and then sad over the deviation from that blessed state of peace and tranquility, belongingness and worth, that was in the divine dimension.

 18.  Who is the Holy Spirit?

 I’ll pass on that one, not having personal experience that I could call “knowledge”.  But the Footladder of Notes Divine is definitely Trinitarian so others interpreting it as one aspect of God’s oneness leaves me comfortable, or that it’s the action part of the Father.  The only important aspect to me in the area of healing is that it’s available to us all, bringing God’s outlook to us when we wish to resume communication and relatedness with God.

  19.  What is His role?

 I believe the Holy Spirit to be in charge of the Pentecost experience bringing God’s outlook and perfect direction in our lives by which salvation (the return to the kingdom) in accomplished.

 I believe that once we have wished to seek God’s help that we’ve done the single job required of us, and now the Holy Spirit takes over the job of fulfilling that wish.  No matter, at any point on that path if we think we’re succeeding or “failing”, going forwards or backwards, that the Holy Spirit knows at each moment what to deliver, what part of the healing sequence we’ve been made ready for, and what will come later on and must remain unhealed until the Spirit can reach it without destabilizing us by delivering to little (and making us doubt its skill) or too much (which would cause fear of our identity being overwhelmed).

 20.  Who is Jesus?

 I’ve chosen Jesus (and His mother too) as my healer, and I fall at His feet in gratitude for what He’s accomplishing with me and through me to help others.  I believe too that He is the representation, the image of the qualities of oneness with the Father and with us, that is part of our own ultimate identity. 

 21.  What is His role?

 I believe that it was his role to be the Teacher that prepared us to receive the personal Pentecost experience, by which we now know of the existence of the kingdom’s spirit dimension, and to demonstrate the Father’s unconditional love and forgiveness of His lost children.  Too, I believe He demonstrated the actual healing process as He underwent it, in order to be the model (by which to know key aspects of the process),- it’s a path, its predetermined, its incremental in the delivery of healing, needs prayer which in itself many times requires repetition to receive the eventual answer.   

22.  Describe God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit.  What is their purpose?  Are we to pray to all or one and why.

I don’t have a tendency to understand theology, my role simply to be a vessel for God’s healing principles and practices.  It’s my understanding that the early church struggled with your question, and it caused bitter conflicts before the Nicene Creed was adopted as the solution to what might have been the major issue- the divine identity of Jesus.  But this is not my area of learning.

There is though a convenient aspect in this that I can see for myself in my prayer life as most helpful.

In my human state, I find it easiest to relate to the person, Jesus, and overwhelmingly my prayer life is directed to Him.  More recently, due to Jesus speaking of His Mother and her divine identity in the “Footladder”, I have been addressing both at one time.  But I don’t think that it’s important to God which part of the Trinity is addressed, or the saint, or the angels, etc.  Simply, who do you feel more comfort to address?  And feel more free-flowing towards?

Scripture shows Jesus addressing His father and also making Himself available for prayer (“oh ye who are tired and overwhelmed, let me bring you peace”).

If the Father brings us comfort, pray to Him.  If Jesus feels safer to address (you know that our mind contains concern about how God feels about us), then its Jesus.  Or maybe we’re very sensitive and troubled in relationships and personal opinion about ourselves or others, than the Holy Spirit might fit the bill (or angels).

As we go along its even possible that our choices might shift.  If we’re uncertain about to whom we should pray, it’s a good idea to put that question into prayer as the lead off point and address it singularly or to any multitude you wish.  Or even a wide open invitation to whoever is listening.  God just wants us all to make contact. Even there, God will lead us through a solution with which we can feel peace and a free-flow of prayer to our person Receiver.

23.  Is He always with me?  Can He always hear me?

God is indeed always with you and always hear you.  But the fact that you ask those questions suggests that there is an uncertainty.  May I make a suggestion?  The next time those thoughts arise (if not even sooner) would you consider asking God those very questions.  Then fall silent.

Give God a chance to enter the channel you’ve opened for Him and provide an answer.  Don’t look for or anticipate a specific avenue by which to expect an answer- a word, a sentence, or suddenly an insight should arrive.  Simply see after a while what you feel about the questions.  Still bother you?  The issue has faded?  Or a sense of the answer has arrived?  Ask again if you’re still uncertain.  Wait again.

Even our Master Teacher was plagued with this issue.  He absolutely believed He had been forsaken on the Cross.  But again, Jesus showed what to do with such harrowing issues.

Jesus felt it and said “Why have you forsaken me?”  The crucial word for us in that sentence is “why”.  Jesus didn’t close his mind off to the issue by “flat-out” accusing His Father of forsaking Him.  He kept the line of communication open by making it a question.  “Why?”

Then do we know that Jesus had a sudden insight in His last moments.  He says “it is done,” after which He adds “unto you I commend my spirit.”  Believe me, you don’t hand your spirit over to a forsaking Father.  He had received an answer which rekindled the flame of trust, the awareness of His Father’s love of Him.

Is there some thread of understanding that can answer your question of uncertainty?  A few thoughts:

            1.  We’ve mentioned that the thought patterns of the human mind are invariably negatively judgmental of ourselves and others.  It is well within its province to suggest He “vacates” you.  Displeasure with you?  Disapproving of you?  Exasperated?  Furious?  Disgusted?  The human mind can come up with these all and many, many more.

            2.  You’re simply unaware, not as yet enabled by the Holy Spirit to be tuned into God within, one with you.  It took me thirteen years from the time my mystical experiences started for God to prepare me for the reality He existed and was within me.  It took that long to stop trying to blow my own horn and listen for His guiding Spirit.  It takes some of us that long to “let go and let God…” and some still longer.

            3.  God has answered, is there, but you are learning to read yet more skillfully His signaling of His Presence.  For instance, suppose you ask Him if He’s “vacated” your premises or if He’s listening to you.  And you felt nothing happened.

 Permit me to ask- did you hear God say he resented the question, or called you a pea-brain?  Nit-wit?  Trouble maker?  Or He said “how dare you ask me such a question?  Who do you think you are?” or “you’re telling me what to do?”  Might I guess you never hear that?  (My God doesn’t do that.  If I ever did hear that, I know my head got going and is trying to act like God, but it doesn’t have the least understanding of what He’s like). 

 Many people when they go to God will say “well, I went and nothing happened.  Nothing.”  But if they’re encouraged to sit in that “nothing” and describe it, invariably, they see it as a product of a mind that is very at peace; no respect, no distress.  No sense of disinterest by God at all.  But they don’t realize the answer has been given.  All is well!  There’s no longer the need to entertain the issues.  The issues aren’t even there anymore.  Case closed.

 24.  Why do I feel so alone sometimes…even when I pray?

 Again, this is something very common.  All prayerful people would tell you they experience that.

 Did you ever notice right in the middle of a sincere prayer offering to your Beloved, that you wonder if you left the oven on, or what you’ll have for lunch?  Distractions, and where are they from?  The human mind, - panicking that your thoughts are a threat to its valid station in you life, and desperately trying to interfere with whatever you’re doing that’s causing its fear.  This phenomenon provides you with the answer to your question.

 When you’re in your human mind, the essential feeling state is one of aloneness, of disconnect with all else. It’s the result of the mind’s negative judgmentalism about yourself.  Guilt and its extension, fear, result in the feeling of unworthiness and separation from all who you now believe would so accordingly judge you.  Either in prayer, or any other time, if the human mind claims you, get ready for that awful debilitating loneliness.

 The answer- if you catch it- praying.  My way would be “love I feel alone. Help me to feel as You would have me feel.”  The result- goodbye loneliness.  Now I’m in my God mind with my Beloved.  There are no needs.  I’m still complete.  This is just one big concocted story I’m choosing to imagine.  God’s right there, I’m assured His only judgment is that I got lost from my own thoughts.  And nothing has changed of my original spirit being from such imagining…until my head grabs me again, and I go through another cycle of healing when He signals me it’s happened again.